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Since several years I have been staying away from home. From college hostel to paying guests to rentals, I’ve had my share of inconvenience and discomfort. In college, I was lucky enough to have a group with whom I have had some of the most cherishable memories. Just the other day I met them all. That’s when this topic stricked me. After college, I moved to a city where I knew no one. I was biting into my first chunk of job and it had a bitter smell. I will be honest and say it was a hard time for me. But, it was my choice to move to that city. Rather than complaining around, I decided to make it home.
Easier said than done. It started getting on my nerves. Sharing room with unknowns, shifting houses, faces changing all around, it was all too much to take in. But, one thing that had been constant was coming back home- to nothing. No one to ask you how your day was, no one to talk to, no one to share your food with. Sometimes, it was lonely but other days, and luckily that was most of the time, it was the taste of fierce independence.
All this time, the one thing that kept me sane is my family. Though far, they taught me to respect this independence I was entrusted with. I started learning to take care of myself just for myself! I even went on a date alone. Yes! I did that. ( I had heard a lot about solitary dates. I wanted to try. ) I enjoyed the food. Don’t ask me how was it, try it yourself.(I was bit bored). Eventually, I grew so close to that city that no other place is good enough for me now. I moved to Bengaluru sometime back in search of a change. Helplessly, I miss my city now and would love to return to it.
If any of you are feeling lonely or anything missing, hang in there. Meanwhile, try some self help books if you like reading. If you don’t, listen to Ted Talks. I find them interesting. Hope you too. It’s a phase. At the end of the day, you will learn to live with yourself, either hard way or easy. You will find your own rhythm. I wish you all love and courage.
Unfortunately, if you are those who have never stayed away from home, sorry pals. You are majorly missing some serious growing-up stuff. Try it before it becomes #MajorFOMO.
You are your home,
Prerana
Easier said than done. It started getting on my nerves. Sharing room with unknowns, shifting houses, faces changing all around, it was all too much to take in. But, one thing that had been constant was coming back home- to nothing. No one to ask you how your day was, no one to talk to, no one to share your food with. Sometimes, it was lonely but other days, and luckily that was most of the time, it was the taste of fierce independence.
All this time, the one thing that kept me sane is my family. Though far, they taught me to respect this independence I was entrusted with. I started learning to take care of myself just for myself! I even went on a date alone. Yes! I did that. ( I had heard a lot about solitary dates. I wanted to try. ) I enjoyed the food. Don’t ask me how was it, try it yourself.(I was bit bored). Eventually, I grew so close to that city that no other place is good enough for me now. I moved to Bengaluru sometime back in search of a change. Helplessly, I miss my city now and would love to return to it.
If any of you are feeling lonely or anything missing, hang in there. Meanwhile, try some self help books if you like reading. If you don’t, listen to Ted Talks. I find them interesting. Hope you too. It’s a phase. At the end of the day, you will learn to live with yourself, either hard way or easy. You will find your own rhythm. I wish you all love and courage.
Unfortunately, if you are those who have never stayed away from home, sorry pals. You are majorly missing some serious growing-up stuff. Try it before it becomes #MajorFOMO.
You are your home,
Prerana
Wow. I can relate to it so well. I can only say, with time it grows on you :)
ReplyDeleteYes! It’s amazing in many ways :)
ReplyDeleteU definitely do learn a lot of things😀.makes you stronger than u wer.
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ReplyDeleteNice Prerna... Even I too come across these things.
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Venkatesh
I am still living a deads life here in Germany no one who cares me. I feel lonely most of the time and the thoughts go chaotic thinking what's my next step. Somehow I still manage to stand up and look for the intention I had before coming here and feel happy about my decision. Finally it is the only thing that makes you strong enough to bare any situation and handle any circumstances you come across.
ReplyDeleteYes. We just have to be ourselves and trust that we are enough. All the love to you Amith.
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